Confession #2: My prayer life has been pretty bad lately, as well as my Bible reading. So I looked into the Bible study and the devotional sections. As a result, I bought a Bible study on Prayer, and a 365 day devotional book on feeling peace in the presence of God.
Lately (especially today), I've been having trouble relaxing and knowing that God has it all planned out for me. Instead I'm more like a rabid raccoon hopped up on Starbucks coffee, who's mind is racing faster than her PR time. This past week I have been turned down by a few potential jobs and some doors have closed. At the moment I'm waiting to hear about a possible temporary job working as a paralegal in WV, and feeling anxious to start some kind of income-generating activity.
To focus on something else, yesterday I started restoring my 1978 Schwinn Le Tour III. As it turns out, restoring a bike also costs money-- one of those things I don't have. Fortunately, I have soap and some WD-40, some old bike seats and synthetic cork handlebar tape to suffice for now.
The thing is though, is that what I need to be focusing on right now is God. I mean, sure God can appreciate a good bike when He sees one, but at the moment He's really focused on drawing my attention back to Him. He's reminding me that the focus needs to be on Him and that everything else falls into place after that. He's like "remember the time you tattooed your feet with sparrows on them to remind yourself not to worry-- that I've got everything under control? Well, I've still got that, so relax, talk to me."
